gf

shit i need a gf soon man... getting despondent too easily... maybe at least widen my circle of friends...

ideals

~sigh damn sad lar.. how come ppl all around me is starting to get so serious about life... do we REALLY have to be so serious about life?

if all we are concerned about life is the amount of money we earn, would we become a slave to money?

to cars, to ur house, to ur gf, blar blar blar.... why is it not good enough for us to worry about the present 1st and the future later... why is it that we always think that we are very mature at our age when we have not even go through 1/3 of our lifes... why must we always set targets for ourselves...

its time to reflect whether we should start living in the present or not...

p.s. i am not saying its not good for us to plan for the future ar...

jo/nohari

haha for those who dun mind, pls help me find out more abt myself...

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=NiaoRen <=== this is the important one(bad points)

http://kevan.org/johari?name=NiaoRen <=== if got time(good points)

haha i seems to be very critical with myself sia... good points take damn long to think of.. bad super easy.. i think i need to improve myself sia...

headache...

waa... siaoz sia... this past few days going thru some lessons in camp... imagine u kanna spatial disorientation... damn sianz.. den we have to go thru the trainer for this lar... imagine got this bloody machine spinning u in the dark at 20-25 rds per min den u have to make head movements... waaa.... tell u u high ar.. worse than rollercoaster... u tilt ur head to left u feel as if u looking up and the world is spinning forward... u look down.... den the whole world rotating clockwise... kns lor... i think i nearly got motion sickness leh... ~sigh scary... heng heli wun do that...

for more info, research: spatial disorientation, semi-circular canels, otolith

central

haha lame rite.. purposely go make another post for the sake of making it.. :/ haha

after the show rite... i went home to surf a bit of net and slept for a nap...... 9:50 woke up... eh how come sky so dark.... go see my hp.. SHIT i slept for 5 hrs... (so much for A nap rite..) saw 2 messages and 3 missed calls... promptly called back to my frens.. eh they already at the pub(i did say i am going pubbing rite... or did i...) haha den i watched abit of tv, showered and went down to central(at clarke key?? haha dunno how to spell can) haha den i did a stupid thing... i took a cab from the clarke key station.... the cab uncle tell me... hongkong street just opp. the road lar!!! eh den i stunned... shit i take a cab for fuck sia... haha anyway... the 2-3 mins ride costed me $3.70.. haha super stunner....(p.s. later i walk from the pub to the same place where i took the cab onli 5-10 mins)

reaching the pub, yong chin, josh, dj and jerrickson(josh's fren) already finished 1/2 a bottle of chivas le... seow reached like 5 mins after me lar... we played foosball, pool and drank a bit... the 6 of us finished 2 bottles of chivas... abit weird leh... i drank like at least 5 cups of chivas+mixer(lost count.. think many more than 5.... hahaha) but never really got drunk.. at least not as bad as drinking beer... i think cos of method of drinking bah... beer i gulp.. this i swallow... hmm maybe sipping i will increase limit..

the crowd there ok lar... the smoke quite abit but i can still take it... the girls... ~sigh onli the bartenders can make it.. even so oso... ~sigh smokers.. cmi :p cannot take smokers... i left early at ard 2:30 cos i noe if i drink somemore later over the limit den i will drunk liaoz.. somemore no one stay near me lar.. i cannot make it home one.. den i walk to the bus stop... ARGHHH taxi haha.. at the busstop(waiting for NR2) got this guy SUPER drunk lar... he snagged out le.. just lying there sleeping nia.. haha so funny... den blar blar got on bus, made it home at ard 4, slept... u get the drift..

anniversery + pub

yesterday was the 5th anniversary for afs... and we all had to go back in the morning to help out either in the carnival stores or blar blar blar u get the drift lar.. quite fun actually.. i got to be a carpenter for the day... was helping out mostly in the hard labor section.. nailing the wood together to make a sign, hammering the nails back in to make a safe disposal... blar blar blar.. i oso helped out in the changing of cars lar... eh btw.. i was one of those in charge of the radio control car booth haha see the people play quite fun sia.. pity not enuff time for us to play... playing at the games oso gives u chops which when collected can be used to exchange for the gifts... unlike other carnivals where prizes are specific to stations this is decentralised.. cool rite haha good idea for a carnival.. after the carnival, we proceeded for lunch.. waaaa the lunch damn up lar!!! got hokkien mee, satay,laksa,kabak,chix rice,char kuay teow and a few others... and all are FREE FLOW BUFFET STYLE!!! wtf rite!!! airforce really different sia... haha after eating quite a bit we proceeded to the MDC show.. quite nice show.. pity its a little boring.. a few of us, myself included, fell prey to the z-monster half way into the show... i think the onli part dat woke me up is that judy(the mc) was decent-looking.. haha.. after the show, went home........ To be continued

romance

haha just watched finish windstruck.. thats wo de ye man shi jie for those who dunno... its the prelude to wo de ye man nu you... kaoz damn romantic lar that guy... he bought a book for the girl and made those page-by-page animation for her... "turn" into the wind after he die... blar blar blar.. so nice... this made me reflect sia.. what exactly do i look for in a girl.. am i really expecting too much? expecting the fairy tale type of relationship which most prob will not happen? or am i just a skeptical person that dun believe in anything? ~sigh.. its like i dun even have a story in my life lor... e.g. that guy broke both his arms during high school... the girl dun play black keys on the piano(thats y the guy painted the black keys into white for her).. blar blar ~sigh i think i shall wait for the story to come to me bah.. ~sigh

writer's dry

hmm... sianz.. its like i hit a writer's block.. recently seeing eric and weili's essay they all seems so great and all i can come up with is some bullshit lines abt secrets haha when most prob i hold no secrets.. :/ always wanted to write the fan jian essay and the new year resolution.. see when i got time and mood den i go about doing it bah... for now i shall just ponder abt writing my secret dairy... haha

secret

haha wondering should i post secret stuff abt me and ppl ard me on here or not... ^_^ hehehe i wonder sia if i post some things that should not be posted what would happen... HMMMMMMM

new skin

wahahahahahaha lazy to script... so ripping and editing this stupid skin caused me 3 days.. haha lazy selfish bastard

long time

hmm seems like a long time seems i last blogged hor.. so sianz lar.. den got things that i feel that i should not be saying mah.. thats y never blog... :/ haha but seeing so many things had happened during the past month and that ppl "pester" me that my blog is dead.. i might as well just post one entry for the people...

lets see.... what had happened so far...
on the relationship side... ~sigh sad to say no progress on any counts... its like i think i am gonna be a bachalor for quite long i guess... the day before mun bbill(no spelling error lar u think i goon izzit) was like telling me...

mun bbill: "zhiwei u and i are the only one in the course that dun have gf before hor.."

i was like... looking ard in class and seeing our coursemates den i was like....

zhiwei:"ya hor"

haha damn stupid rite... so sad haha... den he proceeded to ask me another question..

mun bbill: "u got try chiong girl before or not"

i was like again..... eh... going thru my mind... seems like the only girl i like so far was her nia hor... den was like... cos the past week before this incident i was dunno why oso thinking of her nia den was like... omg... why am i still dwelling in the past... ~sigh been like 3 years liaoz rite? and she still leaves an impression in my stupid mind... ~sigh nevermind lar dun say liaoz..

on character wise leh....

i think my character changed abit during the past year le... became more hardworking... i like... more hardworking den during jc sia.. i think cos this might be my ricebowl bah... more motivated to study for exams.. ~sigh why am i doing this!! ARGHHHH i am suppose to be the most slack one now i think i one of the most hardworking in my course sia.. even my officer oso commented dat i quite hardworking.. -_-"""" haha den another aspect is that my new year resolution has somewhat been acheived... my mouth became SLIGHTLY cleaner this year... lesser vulgarites le... last time is just shoot one den now became more self-consiuous... and i think my memory oso improving... now i can remember things more.. wun so forgetful le... but i still think in black and white... weird rite... i got ask my friends when they close their eyes and think they think in colour or black and white... and i discover i very monochrome... thats y if i separate from my family or friends and i look ard for them i will look for body shape and can't even remember what colour they wearing... even if its like the past 5 mins?????? damn cham rite... ~sigh

got chance to change skin to something i like more den i update again bah.... at least i got update rite??